July 3, 2018

choose where you reach

It is terribly powerless to see that children are being caged right here where we live. 

And if those semantics are disgusting to you. or intense. 

They should be. 

And let us pretend that they weren't children but human beings in general. 

It is still painful. 

We shiver at the idea of crate training a dog. 


Running for your life. 
Running for safety.
Running because you think it's the best you can do for yourself. your family. 
you run. 

you run for your freedom.


My heart is heavy for those who do not know the freedom that I know. 

My heart is heavy because I did nothing to deserve it. 


January 25, 2018

And I think to myself.

And I think to myself. Oil on canvas. 36"x36" 

There are occasional days where your work is acknowledged. 
But often it is by yourself. 

So do things that matter. Deep things. 
People are watching you. Even when you don't think so. 

And you have to love it. 
Because after someone high fives you. 

You go home alone carrying your little heart in your body.

ALSO TERRIBLY DELAYED. cause it is today! 



January 17, 2018

little (big)

I'm on an introspective trek right now because well. 

Because I am a person. 

I try and figure out why I make things, teach, learn, care about what I am working on...

And I am noticing that it is consistently about depth.

and perspective makes all the difference. 
What you focus on.

you can stop at the hard stuff. or the sad. But those things are little (big) gifts that get you past the surface. into the depth where so much beauty and love exists.

There is only a breath between deep pain and deep joy.  

it is about reality. and how to see it.

And while some of my work lives in the imaginary realm, it is rooted in reality.

~ 4' x 6' oil on canvas (email for sale information)


sometimes real can be. or feel like. the worst.

loss is terribly painful.

suffering is hard to watch, or feel.

live longer than 30 seconds and surely you will encounter something terrible.

sometimes alone. sometimes as a group of people.

I am very disoriented when the leader of this country's government cultivates fear and encourages division.

I am sad.

and angry. 

there are still groups that feel they are above others.
and even some that feel hate. 


certainly the challenges and difficult times bring out the importance of love.

take up your heart. and make sure people know what it is made of.

Maybe first make sure you know what it is made of.

I am still figuring that out. but I know part of it is action.
and that is maybe a little part of why I make things.


great things are possible. and some things are probable. 

the best things are both. 

when you go do them. 


November 6, 2017

VOTING. is important. and when you dont vote I think wow. are you serious? that is terribly lazy and heartbreaking.

super important: vote tomorrow. 
inform yourself. 
care about things. 
and use your power to vote. 
dont complain or boo, go do what you can. 
votes add up. and races can be/ are often close. YOU MATTER. 

if you care about human beings you have to care about the people who have power to make decisions for human beings. 

it is not about dramatic arguments. 
it is about your neighbor... and yourself. 

October 10, 2017

The far side of the sea, even there.

The far side of the sea, even there. 

24" x 24"
oil on canvas

is there such a thing as waiting fiercely?

I think it's called hope.


September 28, 2017

pumpkins and lights.


Focusing on home and making things feel warm is part of being able to focus outside of home 
on things that feel less warm. 

I realize that there are places that feel unsafe or unloving or not equal, and I am digesting a lot of the NFL kneeling, the way our leader talks to other world leaders, the hurricanes and earthquakes. 

It feels unfair and weird to buy pumpkins and feel good about things. But I have learned a few ideas that help. 

1- it is possible to have many different feelings at once. my sister preaches this. 

2- it is important to fill up on good and wonderful things. 

3- it is possible to DO something. So I will keep working on what that looks like too. 


June 27, 2017

Oh, the present.

I am on this artistic pursuit.  

It feels very important to me. and It feels like I am very responsible for so much. 

I think we all are. responsible for one another. 

for making things better. 

That is why I write and it is how I live. 

And often it means I am thinking about where I have been. And where I am trying to get. 

I never want to stop recording and loving yesterday. 
and I never want to stop throwing hope in the direction of my future. 

But man. I am really sitting in the lesson that is the present. 

Today my garden has new blooms that it didn't have yesterday. 

and that it will not have for too long. 

Unless they are my hydrangeas cause those are exploding.  and I can virtually hide in them. 
ok. I actually can get in them and hide. 

and have. 

Tonight I am in clean sheets and I have a cold. and I stayed up too late thinking about things. and I just finished ice-cream with sprinkles.

 and all of those specific things make right now very different from all other times. 


Because we have it. 

and because it probably is teaching us something. 

I am working on patience. so for me. thats probably it.


it is in my blood. 


I think sitting in the present is a huge part of learning to trust. 
and learning to rest in truth. 

So I am going to focus on those things. 

...after I listen to a few more songs and think about how sweet it is that the world all goes to sleep at night when things get quiet. 

I mean really. 

The present has so many glorious little parts. 

I will find more now.

and more, tomorrow.

June 14, 2017

banana crown.

So the past few months I have been swimming in LIVE ART work. and the show just happened. 

I am so exhausted and also very full. 

The show was wonderful and I will write more about that for sure. soon.

But, I have simultaneously been working on other things. finishing school. experiencing challenges. and crawling forward. Things are busy and it is great. but only because we choose to feel the victories. 

I choose. to.

i love music. almost more than everything.