PROBABLY BRAVE. already.

The tricky part about being an artist. 

is that life looks different 

every day. 

I am without a completely expected schedule.
Which I love. and am also terrified of.

The amazing part about being an artist.

is that life looks different 

every day.




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look. I snuck a picture of me teaching a night class. this cracked me up.

I always say
I wish I was a little more comfortable.
I dont mean living in a castle.

(I think I would be slightly afraid people were hiding in other rooms that I couldnt see.)

but I would like to just relax a little more. Less leaping from project to project.

just a little more comfortable. 

EXCEPT. 

when I was talking to my friend who had a giant amazing music hit recently. after a lot of hard work.

I realized. 

What crazyamazingthing has ever happened as the result of - being comfortable. 

Am I redundant? Do I say this all the time? Am I going to take the honey sample from the bee keeper EVERY time at the Farmers Market?

Yes. 

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And


I sort of beg for discomfort. I am a walking target. 

*I found myself in a graphic novel. not mine. Madeline L'Engle's--- A Wrinkle in Time. by Hope Larson. 

I say these sort of things a lot because I have to remind myself a lot. 

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*

Because I want to be brave. 

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I am brave. 

I am. 

shhhhh.



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My dad told me that being brave isnt not being afraid. 

It is being afraid. 

and doing it anyway. 

AND I DO THAT A LOT. 

I have the afraid part down you guys.
but thank goodness I also have the DRIVE THERE ANYWAY part down.


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Sometimes that is where my illustrations come from. ok. Let me be honest.

I saw myself in the mirror a couple weeks ago. and I realized. um.

where my characters come from... maybe





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AND WITH THAT.

Let's move.

braveheart style
( which I watched again recently and is really a lot of intense gore. Whew)



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not a lot is scarier than a blank start.
and
not a lot has more amazing possible potential than a blank start.







lots going on at once right now.

but one cool project I am doing is interior and exterior design for a new restaurant/bar.


Foo Dog.


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Sneak Peek at the 30 foot sign going across the front of the building. 

Think Chinese Zodiac Animals. 

dragons like tea.  and also breathing fire. 

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Side note:

a different project...

LOOK AT THIS INSANITY. im aware. 

im really very aware especially because it is very late. and 

my reality.

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It is good to be a little scared.



only if you do it anyways.



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