shift

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things you should NOT do: 

have coffee after 5 pm. 

even if you are teaching a night class. and the weather is great. and you are attracted to the convenience store coffee choices.

(and let's stop there. I mean why incriminate myself further)

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I woke up this morning to a note on my truck from the person who hit it. They left their number.

and they said sorry for the inconvenience.


I did not care.
Actually. I thought... what a nice person.


Seriously.



What a small deal in the grand scheme of things.


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Because when people place bombs at the finish line of a marathon... it is a game changer. 

But my game doesn't entirely change. 

it shifts.

See. I'm actively trying to live the crap out of every day.
every second actually.



I have puppets to make.
deadlines to meet.
illustrations to draw.
sun to sit in.
books to read.
documentaries to watch.
friends to love on.
nephews to mash/smother.
sculptures to sew.
thoughts to write.
scarves to knit.
installations to build.
invitations to create.
parties to plan.
mom to call.
backyards to sit in.
footballs to throw
foodtrucks to visit.
students to celebrate.
adventures to take.



I AM NOT BORED.


I think boring people are bored.

When people say... I am bored. I want to be like, "and....."
and then move away and watch them do a little dance. 

which they won't do. 

(because they are boring. and dancing is not)


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My game doesn't entirely change. 




I still know things that are true.
I remind myself.

I know that hope. and kindness. rule.

as in. they are above everything else.


and hope.

is the only thing that can trump everything.

every.time.

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I am not naive.

I know that there are ugly cracks and terrible moments. 

they try to break us. But, they open us.

sure, they destroy parts of us.

and then we feel like we dont understand everything.





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because we dont.



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No one thinks. Wow. I am so glad terrible things happened to me.

and made me who I am.

But what they do think is.



Look at me now.


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And so. we are able to be thankful for the gifts that rise out of it all.



.The hope that poured out of those cracks.



and


The new things that now fill us. and carry us. forward.

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for, We are not finished.

We are not always comfortable.

We shouldn't be.


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we shift.

we move our energy towards something greater.

than ourselves.


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We should be living as hard as we can.

and doing what makes life easier and more amazing for everyone else.





the pretty part.

is the part where everyone helps each other.

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for it is the scary things that make us brave. 
otherwise we would never be called to put on any kind of courage. 

there would be no need for it.

and courage makes human beings beautiful.




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