Blackbird

So. I'm tired. 

And that means. 

I'm Crazy.

I AM COMPLETELY AWARE OF MY ACTIONS.

and you want to know what concerns me the most about this

impromptu Photobooth session with the lamb I am building.

Well. no,

It's not that it is a ridiculous thing to do.

It is that she is seen. unfinished. 

her final shots will be posted on here after she's done

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I'm currently reading a book nightly that encourages going full force after what you love to do.

More like demands it.

And I am reading it very slowly. so it won't end.

Because my dad wrote on the inside cover. When he gave it to me.

When I was 13.

And, it sounds like him.

And, it powers me out of bed in the morning.

And.

This book pushes me.

He knew it would.

And so does this song,

 

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise

 

Paul McCartney

too excited to sleep.
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Objects in this post are better than they appear.

This picture above looks one of two ways

1- My life is out of control. I'm eating a Spicy Chicken Sandwich in the cab of my truck in the pouring rain because I was hauling tail on an art work day and realized I was starving when I thought... Hm. I'm lightheaded.

or

2. I make really good decisions.



HAVE YOU HAD THAT SANDWICH.?. talk to me then.





Now. Onto some business.





In my immediate family, I have accomplices.

Ones that measure sleeping babies so I can make them Halloween costumes.

Ok so just one. One sister-in-law who texts me THIS picture.

Because she thinks it is the right thing to do.

and in case I can't read the ruler well. She sends me a close up.

Seriously HEATHER. this was appreciated.

The little man has no clue he is going to be the highlight of October 31st.

I will show you the costume at a later date. When I have shots of him IN IT. and well...

when it is off my to do list and on my done list.

Last year I made him into a Jack in the box. I won't tell you his name though.

This is his 2nd Halloween on the planet. and this one will maybe sort of likely be hilarious.

Again, stay tuned for the costume reveal.




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And. stay tuned to see if this lamb gets done.

It will. She needs to catch a flight and rehearse ASAP.

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In addition- I was trying to spice up my time at my office job.

So, I asked the Microsoft Helper to appear. You know you can choose which one... you may remember this from 1997. the dog. the bouncing ball. THE WIZARD.

I just have to say. He did amazing things. I asked him to "animate." This is one of his features. When I asked him to do this, he gestured TOWARDS me. that was it. eerie.  I was so creeped but also loved it.

But by far. The best thing he does is when left alone with no attention- he just looks at his wand. then puts it away. or he crosses his hands and holds his little wrists. The small movements killed me. and completely entertained me all day. until.... well

When he started knocking his hand.... AT me.. I turned him off. yeah. he went too far at that point. that was taunting.  and only two times did I see him make magic. I think he was just annoyed that he was standing there all day.


I still recommend it for entertainment.
It's the little things. 



Speaking of. I have to go make that mini costume.





P.S. Puppets are cool. See here.

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Truth or Dare

So my friend gave me this card.

Says, 

"ever notice that what the hell, 

is always the best idea"

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Seriously. 

preach it. 

Nothing rich and satisfying comes from being comfortable and safe. 

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DISCLAIMER:

Well there was that one time a kid jumped a third story balcony in middle school. He said he did it to just see...

This is not what I am talking about. 

and he totally lived. unharmed. (post ER visit.)

but again. 

This is not what I am talking about.

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I am currently super busy- and will post more images of what I am working on ASAP.

and a sign at the state fair told me this- which is promising:

I have two theater projects due this winter. And. If you haven't noticed- It is nearly here. 

I cant see it through all the pumpkin. but I know it.

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I also have several other deadlines. 

AND

All of this is wonderful. 

For real.

I got this.

Dare.

boo

Mary had a little lamb.

um. well just the head at this point.

thank goodness for company.

yes. 

an electric turkey carver. 

Tis the season.

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The lamb is for a show in NY. and when I say.. oh no I cant go to dinner, I'm really busy, 

 it IS because I am making a lamb. 

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But the other night. It was because I was feverishly painting corn hole sets for a party the next day.

Built by Benji Tull. 

Painted by me. 

Team work.

SET 1:

There's been a crime!

SET 2: Walk the Planks.

Also:

I go overboard with party decor.

because it feels very necessary.

as in. this-

and I got straw bales.

so now my yard smells like a fall fragrance that you can bottle.

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in conclusion, 

HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO DRINK THIS GATORADE?!!?!

life is hard.

The last thing I would ever want at McDonalds is a fruit smoothie.

I'm pretty sure the world agrees with me.

poor fruit smoothie billboard.

also poor me.

because I just got back from VEGAS. and I'm so blue I'm navy. mainly because I'm addicted to my friends.

This picture is from happier times. pre vegas. I packed light.

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also,  I currently survive off olives.

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one thing the world should know:

I AM CURRENTLY IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH 

CIRQUE DU SOLEIL. 

it's facebook status serious.

on this trip, I barely made it to their show:  LOVE.

     click and view the trailer which does the show no justice. but you can see the tiniest bit of the brilliance.

we went because my sister last called the box office last minute and fit us into balcony seats. Aren't the best things always like that? the things you fall into that you realize later were necessary and pivotal to your life. near misses that were really never near misses at all. that were actually what you were meant to see and where you were meant to be.

LOVE is wonderful like their show:  O.  and it took me a seriously long time to stop walking around with that show in my head. and heart. 

clouded up my mind. in a good way, but in a heavy way.

click for this trailer. watch it   and again, remember, you will never know the full effect of the show until you are there and see the repeated visual explosions in person. 

The trailers focus on parts of the show. but the show in its entirety is the best design I have ever seen. 

Ever.

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well. They did it again with LOVE. They had me at "turn off your cell phones"

I cried twice. 

I wanted to cry more, but I kept it together. 

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At this point in my life, when it's jump or be jumped.  (AHAHAHAHAHA.no really. it is.)

I am amazed at the support I get from strangers. 

Like the man at the pool on vacation. The one who overheard our conversation and described his plan for life. 

visualizations are blueprints for life. 

he says

So dream big. Think big. Visualize big.

think of what you can do. what you really CAN do. Not what you will barely do to make ends meet. 

because he says. that is what you will get. 

I completely agree with him on a lot of points. 

he was encouraging. encouraging in regard to taking risks. he says do it.  jump.

tablet drawing. love the tablet.

then he leapt into the pool. how appropriate.

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When speaking of sacrifice. obstacles. challenges. and what other people think. he reminded us of the Shakespeare line:

"for there is nothing
either good or bad, but thinking makes it so" - HAMLET.

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so fear not. 

this horse looked scared to me.

There are 2 morals here:

when a stranger at a pool sets you straight. you should listen. 

and

always try for last minute balcony seats.

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I CANNOT STOP EATING CANDY CORN.

I should have never put it in open containers around the house.

But I also should. do that exact thing.

and make garland from paper cut leaves.

FALL DOES THINGS TO ME. I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO CONTROL. AND IF THERE WERE A SEASONS CONTEST. WHICH IN MY HEAD. THERE IS.  FALL WOULD WIN. IN A HUGE WAY. IN A SERIOUSLY PUMPKIN INFUSED SLIGHT CHILL IN THE MORNING AIR WAY.

WHERE IS HE HEADED!?! would love to know. and then go there. ASAP.

Part of the fall parade happening across any surface in my home that will not move.

Want to know what I am working on right now?

So do I.

OK. I jest. 

I sort of know.

Im currently building a baby. That one of my puppets had.

I know that sounds horrendous when written out. Which is why I wrote it out that way.

But when you work with a theater company that expands original work into new work... sometimes puppet families grow.

OK. I'll stop. it seems to be getting worse.

What if I told you she was green.

and that.

her head was large.

Like silly-large.

Not like, oh that baby has a big head.

More like. That's not a baby at all. what is that?..

IT'S A PUPPET.

what else. right?

I would like to prematurely thank those who are going to carry said baby through Manhattan.

Bless you.